Tremor

In the future, I want to be a famous diplomat. A man who goes around the world helping bring an end to conflicts and implementing long-lasting solutions to help civilians and refugees as well as the soldiers. I want to become Michael Jordan-no Bill Russell, except instead of collecting NBA championships I will have obtained a series of international awards for my efforts. The main reason why I want to do so is that I have a deep love for humanity. I have always found it easier for me to stand up for someone else before I stood up for myself. The second reason is that I harbor deep guilt in terms of my immigrant parents having had to come to the United States mainly because of me being young and needing to go to a good school. This has made me blame myself for the situation which my family is in seeing as it is due to me that their lives are like this. And finally, my last reason is that it would be fucking awesome if I could reach the levels which I absolutely know that I can achieve. Literally, I know so yes my work ethic would have to be even more rigorous and the amount of reading increased to a higher level. But trust me I know that I can be great. To be honest, that is the TLDR of my last reason, " I have it within to me to be great therefore I must be" anything else is an abject failure.  Being great doesn't necessarily mean in diplomacy, career paths could always change. The point is that whatever field I do choose to enter, it would be my every intention to make sure that I have a remarkable legacy in the field. Academia, for example, is one of my top second choices aside from diplomacy and if I did enter that field I would have the same goals. To write books and publish research that changed my field. I know I can do it. Sometimes I would get angry knowing that I have such high goals but a work ethic that doesn't match. It hurts not living up to your potential. It sucks, even more, when you actively realize it but have such bad habits that you keep delaying getting better. However dear reader, trust me when I say that as this summer ends and this college semester begins I will make it my aim to become the absolute best Sebastien that I can be so that one day I may be able to realize the plans that God has set out for me.